May Update

Tomorrow is Mother's day!

Happy Mother's day to all the mothers all over the world. I read it in an article recently about how many nights of sleep parents were deprived once they have children. Hmm... understatement of the year! 

On a different note, I have just recently discovered a Malaysian singer, Shila Amzah who is just amazing! (Not that she needed discovering, she has already released her own album and all that! So I can't believe that I had just heard her sing for the first time recently!) Most singers can deliver a song nowadays. Listen to one of her Malay song here:



But for her to deliver a chinese song with such emotion and depth... omg... I was moved to tears. So beautiful!! I don't think I am the only one, because some of the audience were also crying. Major love~!!



Her pronunciation may not be the most precise but, omg, who cares? Her song sings of its own origin, soul, and background; unique from its original piece. So, I have no cause for complaints. I just love it!



Hope you have an awesome weekend with your mum or in my case, memories of my mum. :) God bless your soul, mum.

March Update

Hi there~!

I am so... so... SO excited this month!!

This year has been awesome so far, I have something to look forward to every month. Last month, it was starting my new work. This month, I am planning to go back to Malaysia for a short break! I know for the short period of time, it's probably not a very economical choice but you can't put a price tag on your loves, right? 

Earlier this month, I was feeling kinda shitty and looked around for a nice book to read and came across a book called 'The Power of Now'. Interestingly enough, it was on how to obtain peace in our lives. It was something I needed especially after I decided to end my research late last year. 

A lot of things happened and I won't recap it here... actually bottom line is a lot of things happened all through my life and sometimes it haunts me. All the would haves, could haves, should haves, if only scenarios played like a broken record in my mind frustrating me. There are times when shitty things people say to me resounded in my head like an undying echo; it made me pull back from future socializing events just so that those voices won't add up in my head. Because truth be told, the worst critic that is ever gonna exist will be myself. A person may hint that my clothes is kinda shabby, but my inner critic is going to emphasize the humongous size of my butt, my fats, or the fact that I just wasn't rich enough. Deep within me is a critic who kept saying 'all this won't have happened if you have been smarter or prettier or faster or even richer'

And I know a lot of people go through their lives transferring that inner critic to somebody external. That is, they blame others for short falling in their lives. I have heard it before, people failed their subjects and they blamed their mother for not teaching them good learning skills (chicken and eggs dilemma) or they blamed their parents for not being through high school (wth?). I think if I wanted to, I can blame a lot of things on a lot of people. I could but it still would not make me any happier, ever. 

If I have learnt something from what I have read so far (which isn't a lot, I haven't finish the book) is to accept and to act. A lot of things in life would have been easier if we accepted it without overthinking it and then act. Stop attaching too much scenario planning and emotions into it. So you want a slim body, stop posting those hate tweets about ppl who are slim, stop hating those people who can eat tons without getting fat, just accept that you can't and lose weight the healthier way. We are most unhappy when we are in contradiction with ourselves. 

But this book isn't all about that. There were parts of it that moved me so much that I teared up but I won't share it here. If you decide to read it, bear in mind that everyone reads the same book but our mind interprets it differently so what may be worthwhile for me might not be the same for you. But if it is, do drop me a comment below. I also found a free online copy here, so feel free to have a read. 

And remember...

'Watch your thoughts, they become words;

 Watch your words, they become actions; 

Watch your actions, they become habits;

Watch your habits, they become character;

Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.'

Here's to wishing all of you an awesome week ahead~!